For the Karma of your Soul

Sometimes i think we believe that throughout our lives the Universe eventually owes us.
That through tragedies, unexpected deaths, war, poverty, that somewhere down the line we feel like the world, the universe owes us some good luck. Or Karma, or whatever you believe in.

That we cant have been handed so much shitty luck for it to not pay off.

I think its a lie we tell ourselves. That the Universe will give us back some good.

I believe that people are who will give back, who will give good back to you and into the world. Not some force like Karma or Luck or Destiny. That in the end it will be ordinary people who give the most, who do the most good.
I think we as people forget how much we can actually do, can actually change.
That the laws the government, and the music artists who make it big only pass, and reach fame because we allow them too. The power to change and shape our world land in the same place it has always been, in the hands of its people.

Nothing in this world can thrive without some kind of backing, or support. People dont just get famous overnight, other people talking about them, watching their movies, things like that. That is what makes them famous, because we as people push them up on this pedestal.

If we as people can push and pull people into fame, i think we can do alot more for the good of the world.If If we used the energy we put into fangirling over people and buying their music and movies and loving them endlessly. If we put some of that energy into changing and better ourselves, bettering the world.

We might actually see some change, some good.
We might actually see the universe give us something good back, because we put good in.

Cyber Dating

Those days when you feel like life might just work out, that it might just throw you a bone. I really like those days,Yesterday was a day like that for me.

Excuse the absence of my blogging and upkeep of my website, Ive been sick for a while, and life kept getting in the way. But I am determined to keep it maintained and keep blogging, its the only thing that keeps me sane!

So Yesterday,
 I called out of work because Ive had headaches for about three weeks and needed to make sure i didnt have brain cancer or a tumor. It was just sinus headaches, and i got pain meds out of it. Woohoo! But as i was laying in my bed, Watching hours upon hours of Supernatural my Best friend sent me a wonderful text. You know those texts that just make your day, yeah it was on of those.
And the short version is, after applying for a house with another person, getting denied and still being out of a 100$, I may now have another place to live! And exciting.

Sometimes i feel that all we need in life is a reminder that things can work out. That they might not be what we expect or when we expect. But it happens, and that is good enough for me.

My life has seen alot of changes since the beginning of 2013! A whirlwind of life and emotions. But i think that after two hellish months its all turning around in my favor, and man am i happy!

Now onto a serious note.
Should you enter into a relationship with someone you met over the internet?
Now i know its the 21st century and thats just what people do, with programs like E-harmony and Match.com it isnt very hard for the socially akward and incredibly busy to find love
But do they really work? Are they actually worth all the incredible awkward tension and the scary thought that they may not be who they are online or via text.
If you'ver seen an episode of Catfish then you understand how crazy some people will be.
Now im not talking about online relationships, where your main source of communication is the computer or your phone, im talking about actually meeting up with these people you meet and getting to know them.

I have entered into one of these said relationships. EEk! You might think im crazy, but sometimes things just happen and you dont really know how it got there. Well we didnt meet on a website, more or less an App...for my iphone. Double EEk! Now we have face-timed and he does look like his picture and seems somewhat normal, if not a little geeky.  But thats my thing. So now we ask ourselves this question "Am i actually going to try and make this work?" Or "Is this just a friend thing?"
With me, it always seems that i end up with all of these men just being my friend, and this is my doing, now theirs. Im a bit of a maneater.
But i have plans to see him this weekend after attending a friends wedding. Now this might be a fluke, it might be awesome. I might totally bail, it just all depends honestly on my mood that day :)

But if i dont return in a week ive either been kidnapped or murdered.
Updates to come!


Keep Safe, and Stay Offline!
Xoxo
   Sophie

A dream is a Wish

Oh to be young, and without worries.

As I was walking into work today, A 15 year old girl was setting up for her birthday a few tables down. She had I about six girls surrounding her, and a box of cupcakes in the middle. I stood at the door and watched them for a few minutes. Before the cupcakes could be opened, they all stood up, put palms to palms, swayed back and forth and chanted some for of secret language. It was strange, but they didn't seem to care what anyone else thought.Because they are young, innocent, and wild.

I can remember being that young once, Im not too old now. But the feeling of being young, and not having so many worries and responsibilities on your shoulder. As i sit up and write this entry, i feel tired and worn out after a long weekend, and a long week awaiting me. I remember not going to sleep until the early hours of the morning, and being able to go and go all day the next day.

When did i become so old?

As i got older, my heels got higher, my shirts and shorts got lower, my hair got longer, and my makeup got heavier. My taste in men changed, and my view on innocence changed, as did my definition of wild.

But my heart hasnt seemed to age much. I still dream too big and get lost in my fantasies.
I feel like that is the only thing that keeps me young, that keeps anyone young. The innocent dreaming, and imagining that this world isnt as dark and dangerous as it really is, and that this society isnt as corrupt and selfish as we know it to be. I believe that the small pieces of innocent dreaming we have left in us is what keeps us dreaming, and what keeps us young. No matter how old we get.

The reality that my website and blog will ever truly become what i want it to be in my head, a beacon for women like me. A place that inspires others to follow their dreams, and that need to be recognized and noticed be fed into. The reality is that it wont ever be that, but the hope, the dream of it becoming more than that is what keeps me going. What keeps me writing, and what keeps me pouring my heart and soul into making my website all that I want.

Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing your hardest. Never let defeat after a loss keep you from hoping for a win. Never let anyone tell you that your not good enough to play this game called life, that your not skilled enough to play in the position you want.

And most of all, dont let the reality of life, stop you from dreaming.

Keep sweet, and Keep Dreaming
XoXo
  Sophie