Oh to be young, and without worries.
As I was walking into work today, A 15 year old girl was setting up for her birthday a few tables down. She had I about six girls surrounding her, and a box of cupcakes in the middle. I stood at the door and watched them for a few minutes. Before the cupcakes could be opened, they all stood up, put palms to palms, swayed back and forth and chanted some for of secret language. It was strange, but they didn't seem to care what anyone else thought.Because they are young, innocent, and wild.
I can remember being that young once, Im not too old now. But the feeling of being young, and not having so many worries and responsibilities on your shoulder. As i sit up and write this entry, i feel tired and worn out after a long weekend, and a long week awaiting me. I remember not going to sleep until the early hours of the morning, and being able to go and go all day the next day.
When did i become so old?
As i got older, my heels got higher, my shirts and shorts got lower, my hair got longer, and my makeup got heavier. My taste in men changed, and my view on innocence changed, as did my definition of wild.
But my heart hasnt seemed to age much. I still dream too big and get lost in my fantasies.
I feel like that is the only thing that keeps me young, that keeps anyone young. The innocent dreaming, and imagining that this world isnt as dark and dangerous as it really is, and that this society isnt as corrupt and selfish as we know it to be. I believe that the small pieces of innocent dreaming we have left in us is what keeps us dreaming, and what keeps us young. No matter how old we get.
The reality that my website and blog will ever truly become what i want it to be in my head, a beacon for women like me. A place that inspires others to follow their dreams, and that need to be recognized and noticed be fed into. The reality is that it wont ever be that, but the hope, the dream of it becoming more than that is what keeps me going. What keeps me writing, and what keeps me pouring my heart and soul into making my website all that I want.
Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing your hardest. Never let defeat after a loss keep you from hoping for a win. Never let anyone tell you that your not good enough to play this game called life, that your not skilled enough to play in the position you want.
And most of all, dont let the reality of life, stop you from dreaming.
Keep sweet, and Keep Dreaming
XoXo
Sophie
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
Friday, January 18, 2013
Hunting 101
House hunting is possibly the most frustrating thing in the world.
Either the house is too far, doesnt allow pets, the agent decides to take a vacation the day we all take off work. Or the rent is so high we would have to start black marketing our organs.
Trust me, if you can live at home. Do it. The world is so expensive, and only the rich and famous can survive.
But I have a list, a very important list that ive carried around mentally while we were looking for houses. Maybe this will help you if youve got a house hunting expedition in the near future.
1- If your moving in with roomates... Do you like them? Do you reallly like them? Because your stuck with them for a year. So you better like them.
2- If using an Agent, find a reliable one. If you find one and they constantly flake..find another if possible.
3- Once you find a house.. Dont let the house blind you from the price, or the price blind you from the house.
- If the house is massive and wonderful, dont mentally push the price of the rent to the back of your mind just because you like it. You wont like it near as much when your picking up extra shifts to try and pay rent.
- If the rent price is low, and the house is decent, dont just overlook things like rotting decks and decaying side paneling. If you can, pay more money for a structure safe house. It pays off in more ways in the end than you realize.
4- It takes more money to fix up an okay house, than it does to pay more for a great house.
5- Utilities are not included. Ever. Keep in mind you could be paying up to 200$ extra a month.
6- If you have pets, like me. Make sure your roomies are A-Ok with them, and dont even look at houses or apartments that dont accept pets. It set's up you and your roomies for a waste of time.
7- Can you afford it? Im guessing this should be my first point. But sometimes you have to see how much it costs before you can come up with a price range.
But for those who it may concern, these are my 7 top mental checklists. This economy is bombed, so trying to find a good place, with a reasonable price, and normal renters is probably the hardest thing ive had to do at the point.
Oh, and convince everyone in my life that i can, indeed handle it. And that my roommates are not plundering pirates here to take me life and my dignity.
In other news, snow has arrived to my wonderful town, and people are raiding the stores like its The Day After Tomorrow. Im actually glad i can go to work and avoid idiots today.
Be Kind, and Keep Hunting,
xoxo Sophie
Either the house is too far, doesnt allow pets, the agent decides to take a vacation the day we all take off work. Or the rent is so high we would have to start black marketing our organs.
Trust me, if you can live at home. Do it. The world is so expensive, and only the rich and famous can survive.
But I have a list, a very important list that ive carried around mentally while we were looking for houses. Maybe this will help you if youve got a house hunting expedition in the near future.
1- If your moving in with roomates... Do you like them? Do you reallly like them? Because your stuck with them for a year. So you better like them.
2- If using an Agent, find a reliable one. If you find one and they constantly flake..find another if possible.
3- Once you find a house.. Dont let the house blind you from the price, or the price blind you from the house.
- If the house is massive and wonderful, dont mentally push the price of the rent to the back of your mind just because you like it. You wont like it near as much when your picking up extra shifts to try and pay rent.
- If the rent price is low, and the house is decent, dont just overlook things like rotting decks and decaying side paneling. If you can, pay more money for a structure safe house. It pays off in more ways in the end than you realize.
4- It takes more money to fix up an okay house, than it does to pay more for a great house.
5- Utilities are not included. Ever. Keep in mind you could be paying up to 200$ extra a month.
6- If you have pets, like me. Make sure your roomies are A-Ok with them, and dont even look at houses or apartments that dont accept pets. It set's up you and your roomies for a waste of time.
7- Can you afford it? Im guessing this should be my first point. But sometimes you have to see how much it costs before you can come up with a price range.
But for those who it may concern, these are my 7 top mental checklists. This economy is bombed, so trying to find a good place, with a reasonable price, and normal renters is probably the hardest thing ive had to do at the point.
Oh, and convince everyone in my life that i can, indeed handle it. And that my roommates are not plundering pirates here to take me life and my dignity.
In other news, snow has arrived to my wonderful town, and people are raiding the stores like its The Day After Tomorrow. Im actually glad i can go to work and avoid idiots today.
Be Kind, and Keep Hunting,
xoxo Sophie
Thursday, January 10, 2013
Who Am I?
Its now 2013!
A New Year!
I know its about a week too late, and about 2 weeks since ive written anything. But life gets in the way.
But as this year began, i felt like i could breathe a sigh o relief. That hell of a year was over, and i could finally start somewhere new. And as i was thinking of where i was, to where ive been, to where i am now. I couldn't help wonder who I was, or at least who Ive become. Im so much different than i was.
My views of Marriage are completely different, considering i was almost close to it.
My Family has become such an important part of my life, but in such a different way.
My Friend's have become my life-force, more than ever before.
Im breaking out of what i used to be, and what people know me as. And not everyone is pleased about it.
The thing about figuring out who you want to be, is that not everyone wants you to change. Those that adjust and accept the change, are the ones who truly love you. And don't just love you because of who they think you are. That seems to always be the hard part, learning who will turn their back on you when you make a life decision that they don't agree with.
Its hard to not get bitter at those people. Its hard to remember that they are only doing what they know, and are reacting in the way they have their entire life. It's hard to accept that you, yourself changed. That your not the same person anymore, not who you used to be. So,... this is not a "New Years" post, its just a "My Year" post.
What Ive learned so far:
-Be true to yourself
-Dont beat yourself up for changing.
-Accept who you are, embrace it. Love yourself. Your the one who has to live with you forever.
-Never settle for men who make you step down to get to their level.
-Friends and Jobs will go, but if you have no family that loves and supports you and your decisions, its a hard life.
-Never keep a job that kills your creativity and passion.
-You dont have to love your job, you dont even have to like it. But what you do, make sure it still can make you happy.
- Dont let your failures keep you from fighting for the future.
-Budget. Budget everything. Your time, your money, your shampoo. Because Time is a precious thing we cannot waste.
-To take a moment everyday, and remember why you have the most amazing life. And that you are truly blessed.
Ten things in Ten days. It seems like a lot, but you wouldn't believe that when you start to change, and when you actually stop and think, how much has changed with you.
Who am I?
Well, im learning. And Its one of the most exciting moments. To find that you are starting fresh, clean and new. To taste independence and not drown. To know love, and if not kept too, turns to hate. To meet disappointment and judgement with a smile, because bitterness is hard to forget.
Hope your New Year is YOUR year. Dont even let the fear of striking out, keep you from playing the game. Do what you want, chase your dreams. Buy a plane ticket with tax returns. Go on adventure. Fall in love, and fall in love again. Eat too much, and sleep it off. Laugh more, and greet everyday with a incredible feeling of "What adventure awaits me today?"
Be Kind and Be Yourself,
With Love,
Sophie
A New Year!
I know its about a week too late, and about 2 weeks since ive written anything. But life gets in the way.
But as this year began, i felt like i could breathe a sigh o relief. That hell of a year was over, and i could finally start somewhere new. And as i was thinking of where i was, to where ive been, to where i am now. I couldn't help wonder who I was, or at least who Ive become. Im so much different than i was.
My views of Marriage are completely different, considering i was almost close to it.
My Family has become such an important part of my life, but in such a different way.
My Friend's have become my life-force, more than ever before.
Im breaking out of what i used to be, and what people know me as. And not everyone is pleased about it.
The thing about figuring out who you want to be, is that not everyone wants you to change. Those that adjust and accept the change, are the ones who truly love you. And don't just love you because of who they think you are. That seems to always be the hard part, learning who will turn their back on you when you make a life decision that they don't agree with.
Its hard to not get bitter at those people. Its hard to remember that they are only doing what they know, and are reacting in the way they have their entire life. It's hard to accept that you, yourself changed. That your not the same person anymore, not who you used to be. So,... this is not a "New Years" post, its just a "My Year" post.
What Ive learned so far:
-Be true to yourself
-Dont beat yourself up for changing.
-Accept who you are, embrace it. Love yourself. Your the one who has to live with you forever.
-Never settle for men who make you step down to get to their level.
-Friends and Jobs will go, but if you have no family that loves and supports you and your decisions, its a hard life.
-Never keep a job that kills your creativity and passion.
-You dont have to love your job, you dont even have to like it. But what you do, make sure it still can make you happy.
- Dont let your failures keep you from fighting for the future.
-Budget. Budget everything. Your time, your money, your shampoo. Because Time is a precious thing we cannot waste.
-To take a moment everyday, and remember why you have the most amazing life. And that you are truly blessed.
Ten things in Ten days. It seems like a lot, but you wouldn't believe that when you start to change, and when you actually stop and think, how much has changed with you.
Who am I?
Well, im learning. And Its one of the most exciting moments. To find that you are starting fresh, clean and new. To taste independence and not drown. To know love, and if not kept too, turns to hate. To meet disappointment and judgement with a smile, because bitterness is hard to forget.
Hope your New Year is YOUR year. Dont even let the fear of striking out, keep you from playing the game. Do what you want, chase your dreams. Buy a plane ticket with tax returns. Go on adventure. Fall in love, and fall in love again. Eat too much, and sleep it off. Laugh more, and greet everyday with a incredible feeling of "What adventure awaits me today?"
Be Kind and Be Yourself,
With Love,
Sophie
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