It always sucks when reality pops up and bites you in the ass.
That has been my week. A week full of ass chomping, and it's only Monday. Well..Tuesday.
Declined for a house, out of 100 bucks, my car needs it's oil changed, my bank needs 300$ for my credit card and my taxes are apparently never getting returned to me.
I'm sure you've just had one of those days, or weeks or month. Where everything decides it doesn't want to cooperate, and reality just keeps smacking you in the ass reminding you that you can't live in fantasy land. That your an adult, and you've got to make big girl decisions. You've got bills to pay, and not enough hours at work to pay them.
I find that after a few good cries, and a incredibly hard workout session you feel better. Exhausted, but better. I decided to read a book,an entire book in 4 hours today, so my brain is fried.
I feel like when everything goes to shit, you see what is really important in life, and how much money you spend on just crap. I feel like we spend money of things we don't need, we slave at jobs we will never like and we push our dreams on the back shelf.
I have this obsession with freedom, with being free. Without limits, without rules. And I defined freedom as never having to feel bad for doing what makes you happy, what you think is right.
But recently I've discovered that freedom is nothing like that. True freedom for yourself is being the best you, that you can be. It's never feeling bad for who you are and what you believe, but it's also never deciding that someone else's beliefs and decisions are wrong. It's embracing people for who they are, with no preconceived ideas, no stereotypes. For never being afraid of life, and of Challenges and problems. Freedom for me, is realizing that you've got to give up every inch of yourself, to understand what it means to be free. To giving it up to your dreams, your friends, your family and your everyday life. To never letting people or social media define who you are.
It's never having to define anyone, or anything.
We put people in boxes, in stereotypes and labels, in which we limit them. We limit them in our minds to what they can do and what they an accomplish, therefore stealing the freedom of being who they are from them. And we constantly do to each other, so we are all just endlessly bound up in each others labels and lives, instead of just living our own.
My New Years resolution was basically to not give a shit about anything, and it's worked out quite well for me actually. But what comes with that, is accepting that you really can't give a shit about what other people do either.
So in bringing this back around, I just cannot give a shit about this week anymore. Neither should you, you should focus on being happy, healthy and free. Life tends to find a way to work itself out, so stop stressing. Stop bothering yourself with other people's lives and decisions. Live yours, and let life unfold for you.
Keep calm and don't give one shit,
Xoxo
Sophie
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